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very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

very belated tour post>>

thank you to everyone who hosted and welcomed me into your worlds at this post-ambiguous pre-coherent phase of life. very grateful to show up raw and vulnerable, unhardened and unarmored, in the state of becoming in which little is clear. to connect and be witnessed as such was challenging, but more faith-bearing than i could have anticipated. this was my first tour after a 5-year hiatus, and what felt like my first real shows since the 6-month tour for discarnate in 2019. i still feel heavy-handed and awkward with my words, as though i’m relearning how to speak (which in many ways i am), but i feel humbled and humbly instilled with a renewed sense of purpose and determination from the tremendous gentleness i was shown on this tour. i will hold the afterglow of these experiences as a guiding force while i move into whatever domains lay ahead. love eternal to all the people i met, didn’t meet, passed, caught eyes with, confided in, encouraged, laughed with, touched with sound for even a moment. i’m relearning how to do this thing and hope to soon show up bolder and louder than ever.

+big s/o to everyone who went on the human design/astrology spirals in every city!!! (e.g slide 10 at @castellobizzarro afterparty)

also i didn't realize until going thru vids but i brought my security tangerine dream tshirt w me (on me) to apparently every show 😂 its the little things get us thru it

some upcoming shows in nyc-

this tues 10/15 @kaleidoscope.bk w @thebeaktrio @two_enchanted_hammers @nocturnal_cellist @steph.clement_

sun 10/27 @purgatory.bk w @trngs_____ @mercurysymbol @pervertibles @dahjyn @coleblu__

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emo ascension initiated

emo ascension initiated

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recent mugs to announce that I am open for all audio-related bookings over the summer, including but not limited to:

- Live sets
- DJ sets
- Ambient hardware sets
- Live audio engineering and technician work (10yrs experience across many types of venues)
- Studio engineering (recording, producing, mixing, mastering)
- Scoring and foley (films, short films, other short-form media)
- Budget-flexible audio hardware and electronics repairs (cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, amps, pickups, synths, audio players, speakers, interfaces, etc.)

Would also love to collaborate on designing and building audio hardware and software (possibly incorporating biosignals and biofeedback..)

Trying to lock in 🔐🔐🔐 Dm me with any interest or inquiries 💌

Recently started taking on repair work for audio hardware/electronics. Cables, microphones, power supplies, mixers, pedals, interfaces, speakers, synths, guitar pickups, etc. Looking to work with a range of new equipment, so hmu for low/flexible rates 🤑

This video features a digital audio player, an in-ear monitor, a few @market.hotel stage snakes, an SM57 microphone and some cables from @hartbarnyc, and @dsmnoisemaker sub atomic pedal. It also features a @whatever_twentyone elastic on my headlamp :)

Esteemed guests ~ Wednesday the 27th, the veil is thin at @fu_ture.space 🤍
Join us for the court of the @____unseelie
Live historically informed fencing demos and figure drawing with @formofthefight

Sounds by
@jabert_ofishal
@dasychira
@qualiatik
@_sntnl

Flyer and Visuals by
@inevitable_heat_death

“neurotech” 🥴🧠

“neurotech” 🥴🧠

“neurotech” 🥴🧠

“neurotech” 🥴🧠

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

Neural plasticity network tattoo for @kate_slauter 💉🦠🔬

Based on early neuroanatomical illustrations (Cajal, late 1800s) selected from ‘The Nervous System and its Constituent Neurones’ (1899). These illustrations were drawn from early microscope studies, and helped establish the neuron as a discrete unit of the nervous system.

The images referenced for this tattoo emphasize network formation and restructuring—or Hebbian neuroplasticity (“cells that fire together wire together”)—as a model of how connections strengthen and evolve over time.

Currently exploring ways to extend this into real-time biosignal-driven tattoo design.

🧩 This is the first prototype of my real-time computational model of cognitive and affective state dynamics built from EEG, modeling adaptive vs. maladaptive regulation, and visualizing state transitions and predictive features prior to collapse/overload.

Over the past few weeks, I’ve been building a real-time system in @touchdesigner for modeling cognitive and affective state from EEG data.

🧠 The goal is to represent brain activity as a dynamic system rather than a set of separate signals, and to build the foundational model for the application of my neuroscience research to real-life therapeutic and diagnostic technologies, as well as embodied and experiential interventions.

🌐 The model combines:

• Valence, arousal, and engagement (DEAP)
• Frequency-band features (alpha/beta/theta/gamma)
• Derived metrics like cognitive load, attention regulation, and integration
• And higher-order properties like stability, velocity, organization, overload, regulatory capacity, and agency

📈 Variance and temporal derivatives are also tracked, so it shows not just what state the system is in, but how it is changing and when it is approaching instability.

🔬 From this, several patterns start to emerge, including:

✅ High load with strong regulation → performance
❌ High load with weak regulation → overload

✅ High stability with positive valence → optimal states
❌ High stability with negative valence → maladaptive persistence

❌ High velocity with low organization → fragmentation
🚨 Rising variance → early instability

The particle field is directly driven by these relationships:

• Density reflects coherence
• Dispersion reflects fragmentation
• Motion reflects rate of change
• Color reflects combined affective and cognitive state

📊 If you pause the video at different moments, the relationships become more legible—how stability, load, regulation, and organization interact, and how transitions unfold over time.

🔮 This is an early prototype, but a step toward modeling cognitive state as a continuous, dynamic system, including how regulation and agency emerge under changing conditions.

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

I am on a train, and I am here to say that the other day, I received approval from my professor and her mentor to submit the first paper on my research for peer review.

I have been developing this work independently for 5 years, originating in my own extended experience with life-shattering chronic pain and neuropathy.

The timing hits hard—I didn’t realize until I checked just now, but the moment I discovered and began this research ‘journey’ was exactly 5 years ago to the day.

The photos and video of the binder and papers were taken in the very first days of this work (April 1–5 2021). This was the first semester when I unexpectedly returned to school after nearly 7 years, and in the midst of a severe months-long flare.

Discovering this hole in the research on dopamine and chronic pain gave me hope that there were solutions to be uncovered, personal revelations to be had, and that I could one day reclaim agency over my life and my body.

I fully believe that doing this work has saved my life, and my hope is that it may also benefit others in a number of ways moving forward.

More on this to come—for now it’s time to make some diagrams 📐🫡

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

Happy full moon 🌚🐺🪐 old show clip and recent activities~ been pouring into many things, building obsessively, enjoying music and solitude, feeling tender and strong. Been thinking about aliveness as devotion, and bliss in the sensory even in grief, loss, fear, confusion—noticing the life vibrating in my nerves and the movement sustaining my body on the inside. Accessing deeper levels of emotion I have been less able to meet in the past. Embodiment becoming practice beyond study, both through self and system. For the first time since childhood I get sleepy at night.. (those who know know how huge this is :’) ) godspeed and care for yourself, and honor life 🦋

very early experiments in building real-time spatial state mappings from multiband EEG with @touchdesigner. working here with band power activity (alpha/beta/theta/gamma) across regions in timescale, heatmap, and overlay

#neuroscience #touchdesigner #eeg #neurotech