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🦋Bring your friends, lovers and dates with you to Butterfly Hickey: UNFOLDED🦋
19:00, Saturday, 6th of June at ATD studio 202

Share this with someone who loves fingering🫴
Reservation link in my bio🔗

So much love for this amazing team💗Pls check out all these cuties that I’m working with✨

Music: @ping.en.hung
Sound/cue: @_naomi.rosa_
Light design/tech: @spinau6
Videography/Production assistant: @crois_san_t
Technical support: Pim Elberse
Critical friend: @placenta___
Visuals: @inawojdyla
Research contributor: Yuxi, Jess Alexander, Tim Alan Brügger, S.E., Anllel Maria Tanus Guillen, Koko Boanyah, Friedfish 魚乾, POM
Outside eyes: @kaleidoscopemisfit @gladurnothete @dittetoppet @koko.yebo @bentezwaantje @little_beautymoon @closebyparadise @meliforu @katrinaa_gus @andreas.hannes
My dear marketing team: @femme_crash

This performance is made possible with the support of Aart Janszen Fund

🦋Bring your friends, lovers and dates with you to Butterfly Hickey: UNFOLDED🦋
19:00, Saturday, 6th of June at ATD studio 202

Share this with someone who loves fingering🫴
Reservation link in my bio🔗

So much love for this amazing team💗Pls check out all these cuties that I’m working with✨

Music: @ping.en.hung
Sound/cue: @_naomi.rosa_
Light design/tech: @spinau6
Videography/Production assistant: @crois_san_t
Technical support: Pim Elberse
Critical friend: @placenta___
Visuals: @inawojdyla
Research contributor: Yuxi, Jess Alexander, Tim Alan Brügger, S.E., Anllel Maria Tanus Guillen, Koko Boanyah, Friedfish 魚乾, POM
Outside eyes: @kaleidoscopemisfit @gladurnothete @dittetoppet @koko.yebo @bentezwaantje @little_beautymoon @closebyparadise @meliforu @katrinaa_gus @andreas.hannes
My dear marketing team: @femme_crash

This performance is made possible with the support of Aart Janszen Fund

🦋Bring your friends, lovers and dates with you to Butterfly Hickey: UNFOLDED🦋
19:00, Saturday, 6th of June at ATD studio 202

Share this with someone who loves fingering🫴
Reservation link in my bio🔗

So much love for this amazing team💗Pls check out all these cuties that I’m working with✨

Music: @ping.en.hung
Sound/cue: @_naomi.rosa_
Light design/tech: @spinau6
Videography/Production assistant: @crois_san_t
Technical support: Pim Elberse
Critical friend: @placenta___
Visuals: @inawojdyla
Research contributor: Yuxi, Jess Alexander, Tim Alan Brügger, S.E., Anllel Maria Tanus Guillen, Koko Boanyah, Friedfish 魚乾, POM
Outside eyes: @kaleidoscopemisfit @gladurnothete @dittetoppet @koko.yebo @bentezwaantje @little_beautymoon @closebyparadise @meliforu @katrinaa_gus @andreas.hannes
My dear marketing team: @femme_crash

This performance is made possible with the support of Aart Janszen Fund

Butterfly Hickey: UNFOLDED
19:00, Saturday, 6th of June at ATD studio 202

Becoming your sapphic wet dream🌙✨

Music: @ping.en.hung
Filming: @closebyparadise

Reservation link in my Bio🔗
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牽手是什麼感覺？

國中時我成績還不錯，唯獨算數很差，考試往往漏寫一個零或是不小心讓小明一分鐘吃五十份便當。

這時我就會想起17號。17號學過珠心算，每次發數學考卷她都是第一個上前拿。考試她總是掐指在空中算來算去。我偷偷笑她像道士作法，同時安慰自己算術差不代表什麼，邏輯通比較重要，但是下次考試，我忍不住往她那邊望去。

我把考卷折起來放在桌子邊緣，向根本沒在看的老師示意我的清白， 然後就放肆任由我的眼神隨著他的手起舞。她的桌面擺設十分嚴謹，藕粉色筆袋擺在右斜前方，只拿了2B鉛筆跟橡皮擦出來。考卷方正的躺在桌子中間偏右，好讓算數的左手有空間恣意發揮。她把長髮向後一撒，將還垂在臉前的碎髮勾到耳後。這代表她要認真了。

我不懂珠心算的原理，只是盲目的跟著掐。中指第一節，小指第三節，食指第一節，她的手好像變成我的手。掐掐掐寫; 掐掐寫寫; 寫掐寫掐，每個細小的動作都緊緊抓住我的目光。

考試鈴響，那是我第一次交白卷。

下課後17號走向我的桌子，默默說了一句：「反正我數學考多好也沒用，你還是會第一名。」唉，這道士嫉妒的手法粗糙得令人心疼。

「陪我去圖書館。」
「幹嘛？」

「跪算盤。」

Butterfly Hickey: UNFOLDED
Music: @ping.en.hung
Story: @femme_crash

Sound on!

My baby (my solo) is comingggg🦋
Come see me on the 6th of June 19:00 at ATD, studio 202

This project is supported by Aarts Janszen Fund

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

I started this side job last year because of the film I watched in Utrecht queer film festival, The sketch by @calizis . I was deeply touched by the nakedness of the actress(both figuratively and literally),so tender and so honest. I applied for 10 places in Amsterdam for live drawing model job within the next week.

It’s odd and a bit funny that I find it awkward to be photographed yet I’m very comfortable being naked in front of a bunch of strangers who are frantically analyzing every inch of me.

Sometimes the job can be very hard on the body. There were multiple times that I strike a pose and regretted it 3 mins in to it because I can’t feel my arms anymore.

To be fierce for 30 seconds is fun, 30 mins? Then it’s a constant surf between pain and boredom.

People always clocked me as a dancer when I pose and ask me what dance do I do, then I always add a bit of waacking history to the picture. Posing exercises literally saved my ass in this job.

Anyway, if you are looking for a model, dm/email me✨ I do both portraits and poses, clothed or naked. I swear it’s very fun to paint me.

If you saw your painting on this post and you would like me to tag you or take it down, just send me a message💜

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

好想回山上喝茶。在烏來跟 @closebyparadise 走了信賢步道，一路上都是瀑布，他們都在陪我哭。

和舞團去印尼的時候我們也去看了瀑布，園區型的，充滿水泥竹子。人在他鄉感動的標準很低，似曾相識的景色騙我抽了根菸，欲哭無淚只能湊近點任憑水霧潤濕臉頰，說服自己這牌定妝噴霧能把臉上的笑容定好。

朋友看完演出說雖然我的笑容很專業，但是看得出來我是ㄍㄧㄥˉ過來的。他講得犀利明快，音量毫無控管。同事走過來說：我聽到了。朋友嚇得趕快道歉，我只是揮揮手說沒事。

巡迴過程裡常常妝卸不乾淨，反正隔天又要演出，半夜一點實在是沒有那個力氣跟殘餘的眼線液搏鬥，所以有時候早上擤鼻涕，看得到前一天的亮粉跟睫毛膏。

瀑布牌定妝噴霧太持久，今天還是早上六點醒來，浮腫的臉跟黑眼圈。
至少鼻涕沒有夾帶眼影了，剩下的慢慢卸吧。

是真的沒事了。

今天不耍辣
跟雜草和一些無關緊要的女同思想一起跳舞

throw back to my first ever battle @waackymoves.tastygrooves Beautiful event full of joy and celebration of community.

Looking back I feel like there is so much to grow but I wish I will always remember that tingle of joy in my belly when I enter✨

As I said to my friend, battle feels like a tiny performance and I am more than grateful to have everyone’s attention for a good minute.

Be ugly and have fun…next time pls be on the beat Pei I’m begging you💀

throw back to my first ever battle @waackymoves.tastygrooves Beautiful event full of joy and celebration of community.

Looking back I feel like there is so much to grow but I wish I will always remember that tingle of joy in my belly when I enter✨

As I said to my friend, battle feels like a tiny performance and I am more than grateful to have everyone’s attention for a good minute.

Be ugly and have fun…next time pls be on the beat Pei I’m begging you💀

throw back to my first ever battle @waackymoves.tastygrooves Beautiful event full of joy and celebration of community.

Looking back I feel like there is so much to grow but I wish I will always remember that tingle of joy in my belly when I enter✨

As I said to my friend, battle feels like a tiny performance and I am more than grateful to have everyone’s attention for a good minute.

Be ugly and have fun…next time pls be on the beat Pei I’m begging you💀

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

I never thought I can have another dance obsession yet here I am😮‍💨being the annoying person randomly doing arm drills during rehearsals

I love that in the drill video (5) I was not breathing until the last second lol habits always gets me

I was such a baby and still a baby but I guess crawling instead of rolling

Thanks for the beautiful @saradasarita & @kaleidoscopemisfit and all the people I have encountered on this journey, somehow whacking really heals me

Also I think this all started because in one class we need to imitate other people dancing and I have to do @crois_san_t💀Thanks bestie

Made by my talented sis @hemi2flex

House of Pain will be presented on April 23, 24, 25 in Amsterdam.

Sound design : @leng.egg

HOUSE OF PAIN

Concept: NANA
Performers : @sensitive_dyke @_naomi.rosa_@leng.egg @_tsukagi.nyo_ @mandisa_cg@lng.anais
Advisor: @xbonaventurex
Sound Design: @leng.egg
Scenography: @lng.anais
Video maker : @guyom_lamour

Moon in uterus festival @sndo_choreography

Dates : 23, 24, 25 April at 19h
Location : Jodenbreestraat 3, 1011 NG Amsterdam
Ticket link : https://www.atd.ahk.nl/en/dance-programmes/sndo-choreography/news/event/2025/4/3/sndo2-mooninuterus/#

國中的時候，每次要拍合照我都在躲鏡頭。偏偏待在舞蹈班，整天有各種訪視、演出、活動，拍照是常態。

待在一整群漂亮的人旁邊，討厭自己不是一個選擇，是結果。那時候厭女得不得了，什麼不怕最怕被別人說我三八或做作。當時想法很單純，拍照=覺得很重要，自拍=覺得自己很重要。

謙虛的人怎麼可以覺得自己重要？現在回頭看當然會問為什麼要謙虛，不得不說儒教思想真毒啊。

前女友跟我說要多自拍，反正可以隱藏。我鬧彆扭，內心決定拍給別人比拍給自己來得有價值，於是當時最真實的模樣都在前任們的聊天室裡頭，自己手機裡頭反而空空如也。

之前曾經開玩笑說，跟我在一起的人一定都不是看我的臉，大家都是看內在。朋友說那不是很好嗎，代表他們真的喜歡你啊？自動篩選掉不合格的欸！

心機重得不行，別人沒過關又自己偷偷難過。

不想再難過ㄌ
好好看我，我也會好好看自己。

During my time in middle school, I was always hiding from camera. Sucks to be me, I was in freaking dance school so there is all kinds of performances and events that a photo is needed to checks those boxes.

Staying around all those pretty people (still do now), hating myself is not a choice but a mere subsequence. Misogyny got me there, I’m not scared of anything but being called performative. It was very straightforward, photos are for important things, and taking a selfie means that I am important.

How can a humble person be so self-indulging? Looking back I should’ve questioned why should I be humble.

My ex told me to take more selfies, hidden album exists for a reason. I felt awkward about it still so I decided in my head that taking photos of myself for the sake of others are more valuable. In the end all my most honest self are in my ex’s chats.

I once joked that all those people who decide to be with me all came for the vibes instead of the looks. My friend was so innocent that she told me, Isn’t that amazing? Then you got all the people who genuinely like you!

Well, I set up that trap for myself. I was sad for quite a while.

Don’t want to be sad anymore.

Look at me good. Will do too.

國中的時候，每次要拍合照我都在躲鏡頭。偏偏待在舞蹈班，整天有各種訪視、演出、活動，拍照是常態。

待在一整群漂亮的人旁邊，討厭自己不是一個選擇，是結果。那時候厭女得不得了，什麼不怕最怕被別人說我三八或做作。當時想法很單純，拍照=覺得很重要，自拍=覺得自己很重要。

謙虛的人怎麼可以覺得自己重要？現在回頭看當然會問為什麼要謙虛，不得不說儒教思想真毒啊。

前女友跟我說要多自拍，反正可以隱藏。我鬧彆扭，內心決定拍給別人比拍給自己來得有價值，於是當時最真實的模樣都在前任們的聊天室裡頭，自己手機裡頭反而空空如也。

之前曾經開玩笑說，跟我在一起的人一定都不是看我的臉，大家都是看內在。朋友說那不是很好嗎，代表他們真的喜歡你啊？自動篩選掉不合格的欸！

心機重得不行，別人沒過關又自己偷偷難過。

不想再難過ㄌ
好好看我，我也會好好看自己。

During my time in middle school, I was always hiding from camera. Sucks to be me, I was in freaking dance school so there is all kinds of performances and events that a photo is needed to checks those boxes.

Staying around all those pretty people (still do now), hating myself is not a choice but a mere subsequence. Misogyny got me there, I’m not scared of anything but being called performative. It was very straightforward, photos are for important things, and taking a selfie means that I am important.

How can a humble person be so self-indulging? Looking back I should’ve questioned why should I be humble.

My ex told me to take more selfies, hidden album exists for a reason. I felt awkward about it still so I decided in my head that taking photos of myself for the sake of others are more valuable. In the end all my most honest self are in my ex’s chats.

I once joked that all those people who decide to be with me all came for the vibes instead of the looks. My friend was so innocent that she told me, Isn’t that amazing? Then you got all the people who genuinely like you!

Well, I set up that trap for myself. I was sad for quite a while.

Don’t want to be sad anymore.

Look at me good. Will do too.

國中的時候，每次要拍合照我都在躲鏡頭。偏偏待在舞蹈班，整天有各種訪視、演出、活動，拍照是常態。

待在一整群漂亮的人旁邊，討厭自己不是一個選擇，是結果。那時候厭女得不得了，什麼不怕最怕被別人說我三八或做作。當時想法很單純，拍照=覺得很重要，自拍=覺得自己很重要。

謙虛的人怎麼可以覺得自己重要？現在回頭看當然會問為什麼要謙虛，不得不說儒教思想真毒啊。

前女友跟我說要多自拍，反正可以隱藏。我鬧彆扭，內心決定拍給別人比拍給自己來得有價值，於是當時最真實的模樣都在前任們的聊天室裡頭，自己手機裡頭反而空空如也。

之前曾經開玩笑說，跟我在一起的人一定都不是看我的臉，大家都是看內在。朋友說那不是很好嗎，代表他們真的喜歡你啊？自動篩選掉不合格的欸！

心機重得不行，別人沒過關又自己偷偷難過。

不想再難過ㄌ
好好看我，我也會好好看自己。

During my time in middle school, I was always hiding from camera. Sucks to be me, I was in freaking dance school so there is all kinds of performances and events that a photo is needed to checks those boxes.

Staying around all those pretty people (still do now), hating myself is not a choice but a mere subsequence. Misogyny got me there, I’m not scared of anything but being called performative. It was very straightforward, photos are for important things, and taking a selfie means that I am important.

How can a humble person be so self-indulging? Looking back I should’ve questioned why should I be humble.

My ex told me to take more selfies, hidden album exists for a reason. I felt awkward about it still so I decided in my head that taking photos of myself for the sake of others are more valuable. In the end all my most honest self are in my ex’s chats.

I once joked that all those people who decide to be with me all came for the vibes instead of the looks. My friend was so innocent that she told me, Isn’t that amazing? Then you got all the people who genuinely like you!

Well, I set up that trap for myself. I was sad for quite a while.

Don’t want to be sad anymore.

Look at me good. Will do too.

國中的時候，每次要拍合照我都在躲鏡頭。偏偏待在舞蹈班，整天有各種訪視、演出、活動，拍照是常態。

待在一整群漂亮的人旁邊，討厭自己不是一個選擇，是結果。那時候厭女得不得了，什麼不怕最怕被別人說我三八或做作。當時想法很單純，拍照=覺得很重要，自拍=覺得自己很重要。

謙虛的人怎麼可以覺得自己重要？現在回頭看當然會問為什麼要謙虛，不得不說儒教思想真毒啊。

前女友跟我說要多自拍，反正可以隱藏。我鬧彆扭，內心決定拍給別人比拍給自己來得有價值，於是當時最真實的模樣都在前任們的聊天室裡頭，自己手機裡頭反而空空如也。

之前曾經開玩笑說，跟我在一起的人一定都不是看我的臉，大家都是看內在。朋友說那不是很好嗎，代表他們真的喜歡你啊？自動篩選掉不合格的欸！

心機重得不行，別人沒過關又自己偷偷難過。

不想再難過ㄌ
好好看我，我也會好好看自己。

During my time in middle school, I was always hiding from camera. Sucks to be me, I was in freaking dance school so there is all kinds of performances and events that a photo is needed to checks those boxes.

Staying around all those pretty people (still do now), hating myself is not a choice but a mere subsequence. Misogyny got me there, I’m not scared of anything but being called performative. It was very straightforward, photos are for important things, and taking a selfie means that I am important.

How can a humble person be so self-indulging? Looking back I should’ve questioned why should I be humble.

My ex told me to take more selfies, hidden album exists for a reason. I felt awkward about it still so I decided in my head that taking photos of myself for the sake of others are more valuable. In the end all my most honest self are in my ex’s chats.

I once joked that all those people who decide to be with me all came for the vibes instead of the looks. My friend was so innocent that she told me, Isn’t that amazing? Then you got all the people who genuinely like you!

Well, I set up that trap for myself. I was sad for quite a while.

Don’t want to be sad anymore.

Look at me good. Will do too.