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This cross was gifted to me by my mother, Betty. When we laid her to rest just before the COVID lockdown, it was placed between her hands. Since then, I’ve kept it hanging in the window of every bedroom I’ve lived in—catching the light and looking out over each new view.

For years I’ve searched for ways to feel her presence. Being back in the hospital has brought up the quiet grief of knowing I can’t call her the way I used to when I’m scared or in pain. In those moments, the silence feels heavy.

Last year I layered it with a rosary that @personal_pan_pizza_ gave me—one that was blessed by Pope Francis after the last time I was hospitalized, following a violent assault. But on my darkest days, when everything feels still, I’m reminded of her in the way the light pours through that cross each sunset in my room.

Betty taught me how to be kind. She taught me how to be resourceful. She taught me how to survive. But she never taught me how to accept help.

For so many years, my life has been about survival. But recently I’ve begun to dream again and to believe that my dreams are worthy of coming true. I need them to come true not just for me, but for Betty.

I hesitated to ask for help, but right now I’m fighting for my fucking life.

If you’re in a position to support me, I would be deeply grateful. Even small contributions help buy me the time I need to heal without completely falling behind. Asking for help doesn’t come easily, but I’m realizing I can’t get through this alone.

My sweet friends @christian_face and Sammy Lewis have set up a GoFundMe for me. If donating isn’t possible, sharing this post would mean the world.

Thank you for holding me through such a difficult moment.

xx Hexie 🤍

Photo by @gabo__gamboa

Join me TOMORROW and The world of @bustedbrand through latex, sound & touch. 10.29 @stockroomretail
6pm - 10pm
1769 Glendale BIvd, Los Angeles CA 90026
Parking is limited - ride share encouraged

Join me TOMORROW and The world of @bustedbrand through latex, sound & touch. 10.29 @stockroomretail
6pm - 10pm
1769 Glendale BIvd, Los Angeles CA 90026
Parking is limited - ride share encouraged

“Blasting Through the Speakers” video out now — link in bio. 🖤

Director: @hernameishex
Prod Co: @Nostorageproductions
Producer: @_bridget_taylor_01 @rachellnagao
Director of Photography: @sonalichugani
Production Designer: @isabella.a.monge.gmail
1st AD: @kevincoulson.studio
Editor @cutbynatalie
Colorist @hooliincolor
1st AC: @mateoarturo3
B Cam Op: @gingerport
Gaffer: taylor widener
Key Grip: @austin_speakman
BBE: @rickyjdee17
BBG: @grahamhammond
Set Dresser: @nelsnegatives
PA: @rachel_kerr_c
Truck PA: @spaghetti_daddi
MUA:@malcolm.marquez
Hair: @shidehkafei
Stylist: @chrishoran20
Style Asst: @sanamceline @greerheavrin
Movement Direction: @_alter_boy
Art Direction: @sylphfigured

Stills Team
Stills: @quentinswenke
Social Media & BTS: @schillliller @anyagta4ever @alima_lee

Management
Manager: @eawbrey
Manager Asst: @alisonmendozza
Giant, Marketing: @eddieem

Happy birthday @christian_face 🖤

550 cc, high profile, above the muscle!!!! silicone!!! Nance Yuan!!! hope this helps lol

Feliz cumpleaños mi corazón 🖤

Feliz cumpleaños mi corazón 🖤

Feliz cumpleaños mi corazón 🖤

Feliz cumpleaños mi corazón 🖤

Feliz cumpleaños mi corazón 🖤

@hernameishex Wearing the Iona Corset & Vaquero Belt. Now available at www.bustedbrand.com

@hernameishex Wearing the Iona Corset & Vaquero Belt. Now available at www.bustedbrand.com

@hernameishex Wearing the Iona Corset & Vaquero Belt. Now available at www.bustedbrand.com

@hernameishex Wearing the Iona Corset & Vaquero Belt. Now available at www.bustedbrand.com

I’ve been thinking 💭

@bustedbrand 🖤

Manifesting abundance for all the dolls y trade.

Performance for “Youth is the Answer,” an installation by Los Angeles-based artist and fashion designer @barragan and the final exhibition at @carlyepacker current location. Now showing until March 2

@barragan forever ♾️