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I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

I turned 39 this week, and my beloved @vicki__jawaid took these heroic birthday portraits of me wearing stunning wings designed by my dear friend @jaxon_yang.

For fifteen years, I struggled with obesity and burnout, believing that I needed to devote every waking hour to work just to survive as a queer Asian immigrant in New York City. I would hide behind baggy, black Uniqlo clothes that Waqas would buy for me; shopping malls and dressing rooms would trigger visceral anxiety and panic attacks. I would literally hide when people wanted to take pictures, so there is hardly any evidence of my existence during that period. I could not reach behind me to put on a seatbelt without severe pain, and I felt like maybe this was the price I owed for choosing a career in design. I could make beautiful things for others at the cost of my health and happiness. I was sad all the time, and I could not bear the sight of myself.

I still carry all of that history with me, but I am learning to be grateful for my body in all its forms and resilience. I am embracing its strength, its beauty, its scars, its dignity. I am working every day to be proud of and happy with myself—to take ownership of my pleasure, my joy, and my destiny. I hope by sharing this that others who are on a similar journey can feel less alone. I am here for you too, and I love you.

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy birthday to @vicki__jawaid, my forever love and best friend. You inspire me every day to be more courageous, kind, and imaginative. It is my greatest privilege to share this life with you. 💗✨

Happy 18th anniversary! Loving you is the privilege of my life. 💕✨

Happy 18th anniversary! Loving you is the privilege of my life. 💕✨

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

To my Valentine: on the good days and the bad, through joy and ecstasy, grief and hardship, you are my forever love and best friend. I will always put you first and be there for you.

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

2023: the year I learned to love this body and to treat it like a work of art

Je t’aime

HBD @vicki__jawaid. Let’s be forever friends.

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Khuda hafiz, Karachi! See you again soon.

Khuda hafiz, Karachi! See you again soon.

Grateful to spend a little time with this beautiful family. Thank you for making me feel welcome here.

Grateful to spend a little time with this beautiful family. Thank you for making me feel welcome here.

Grateful to spend a little time with this beautiful family. Thank you for making me feel welcome here.

Grateful to spend a little time with this beautiful family. Thank you for making me feel welcome here.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

Lunch and chai with my favorite person. Thank you for sharing your beautiful hometown with me.

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This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been

This is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been