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I’ve always struggled with my weight, ever since I was a child. It’s something that’s fluctuated a lot over the years.

And at the same time, my weight has always been something people feel comfortable commenting on. “Suze, you’ve lost weight, you look great”- I know these comments are well meaning, but they create a really damaging idea of what’s “good” or “bad”, or socially acceptable.

Over time, it’s really affected how I see myself. How attractive I think I am. How worthy of love I feel and I’ve often felt like I stick out like a sore (or swollen 😅) thumb.

For the past 3 weeks, I’ve been in Bali doing my yoga teacher training. And it has taught me so much, not just about what my body is capable of, but about the fact that we have many layers of self, and my physical body is only one of them. It most definitely doesn’t define me.

What matters more is the awareness and consciousness and energy within me. That’s what allows me to actually live my life fully, and to share that with others.

And I was so wrong about my fears…

I felt instantly accepted by the most loving, supportive Kula. I sweated bucket. My rolls rolled. I got my legs out (😮😮😮) and I modified where I needed to by listening to my body.

Yoga teaches us that we are already perfect as we are and that growth doesn’t come from punishment or self-loathing, it comes from openness, curiosity, and compassion. I am just a sum of everything that’s happened to me up until this point, which includes things like having an ectopic pregnancy 9 months ago, something that really affected my weight and I’m still recovering from, both mentally and physically.

So I’m really learning to feel grateful for my body, for going through so much and still carrying me. Allowing me to move, to smile, to connect, and to experience life in this way.

None of this would have been possible without the amazing community I met @saltyprana , especially @_yoga_vida_celine , @bennynilon and @elisa.suryaflow and my loved one’s support, and for that I’m so grateful.

If you are in need of a yoga teacher in London, I would LOVE to wiggle on the mat and hold space for you. Just send me a dm, or comment below 🧡🫶🏼🙏🏼

I’ve always struggled with my weight, ever since I was a child. It’s something that’s fluctuated a lot over the years.

And at the same time, my weight has always been something people feel comfortable commenting on. “Suze, you’ve lost weight, you look great”- I know these comments are well meaning, but they create a really damaging idea of what’s “good” or “bad”, or socially acceptable.

Over time, it’s really affected how I see myself. How attractive I think I am. How worthy of love I feel and I’ve often felt like I stick out like a sore (or swollen 😅) thumb.

For the past 3 weeks, I’ve been in Bali doing my yoga teacher training. And it has taught me so much, not just about what my body is capable of, but about the fact that we have many layers of self, and my physical body is only one of them. It most definitely doesn’t define me.

What matters more is the awareness and consciousness and energy within me. That’s what allows me to actually live my life fully, and to share that with others.

And I was so wrong about my fears…

I felt instantly accepted by the most loving, supportive Kula. I sweated bucket. My rolls rolled. I got my legs out (😮😮😮) and I modified where I needed to by listening to my body.

Yoga teaches us that we are already perfect as we are and that growth doesn’t come from punishment or self-loathing, it comes from openness, curiosity, and compassion. I am just a sum of everything that’s happened to me up until this point, which includes things like having an ectopic pregnancy 9 months ago, something that really affected my weight and I’m still recovering from, both mentally and physically.

So I’m really learning to feel grateful for my body, for going through so much and still carrying me. Allowing me to move, to smile, to connect, and to experience life in this way.

None of this would have been possible without the amazing community I met @saltyprana , especially @_yoga_vida_celine , @bennynilon and @elisa.suryaflow and my loved one’s support, and for that I’m so grateful.

If you are in need of a yoga teacher in London, I would LOVE to wiggle on the mat and hold space for you. Just send me a dm, or comment below 🧡🫶🏼🙏🏼

I’ve always struggled with my weight, ever since I was a child. It’s something that’s fluctuated a lot over the years.

And at the same time, my weight has always been something people feel comfortable commenting on. “Suze, you’ve lost weight, you look great”- I know these comments are well meaning, but they create a really damaging idea of what’s “good” or “bad”, or socially acceptable.

Over time, it’s really affected how I see myself. How attractive I think I am. How worthy of love I feel and I’ve often felt like I stick out like a sore (or swollen 😅) thumb.

For the past 3 weeks, I’ve been in Bali doing my yoga teacher training. And it has taught me so much, not just about what my body is capable of, but about the fact that we have many layers of self, and my physical body is only one of them. It most definitely doesn’t define me.

What matters more is the awareness and consciousness and energy within me. That’s what allows me to actually live my life fully, and to share that with others.

And I was so wrong about my fears…

I felt instantly accepted by the most loving, supportive Kula. I sweated bucket. My rolls rolled. I got my legs out (😮😮😮) and I modified where I needed to by listening to my body.

Yoga teaches us that we are already perfect as we are and that growth doesn’t come from punishment or self-loathing, it comes from openness, curiosity, and compassion. I am just a sum of everything that’s happened to me up until this point, which includes things like having an ectopic pregnancy 9 months ago, something that really affected my weight and I’m still recovering from, both mentally and physically.

So I’m really learning to feel grateful for my body, for going through so much and still carrying me. Allowing me to move, to smile, to connect, and to experience life in this way.

None of this would have been possible without the amazing community I met @saltyprana , especially @_yoga_vida_celine , @bennynilon and @elisa.suryaflow and my loved one’s support, and for that I’m so grateful.

If you are in need of a yoga teacher in London, I would LOVE to wiggle on the mat and hold space for you. Just send me a dm, or comment below 🧡🫶🏼🙏🏼

I’ve always struggled with my weight, ever since I was a child. It’s something that’s fluctuated a lot over the years.

And at the same time, my weight has always been something people feel comfortable commenting on. “Suze, you’ve lost weight, you look great”- I know these comments are well meaning, but they create a really damaging idea of what’s “good” or “bad”, or socially acceptable.

Over time, it’s really affected how I see myself. How attractive I think I am. How worthy of love I feel and I’ve often felt like I stick out like a sore (or swollen 😅) thumb.

For the past 3 weeks, I’ve been in Bali doing my yoga teacher training. And it has taught me so much, not just about what my body is capable of, but about the fact that we have many layers of self, and my physical body is only one of them. It most definitely doesn’t define me.

What matters more is the awareness and consciousness and energy within me. That’s what allows me to actually live my life fully, and to share that with others.

And I was so wrong about my fears…

I felt instantly accepted by the most loving, supportive Kula. I sweated bucket. My rolls rolled. I got my legs out (😮😮😮) and I modified where I needed to by listening to my body.

Yoga teaches us that we are already perfect as we are and that growth doesn’t come from punishment or self-loathing, it comes from openness, curiosity, and compassion. I am just a sum of everything that’s happened to me up until this point, which includes things like having an ectopic pregnancy 9 months ago, something that really affected my weight and I’m still recovering from, both mentally and physically.

So I’m really learning to feel grateful for my body, for going through so much and still carrying me. Allowing me to move, to smile, to connect, and to experience life in this way.

None of this would have been possible without the amazing community I met @saltyprana , especially @_yoga_vida_celine , @bennynilon and @elisa.suryaflow and my loved one’s support, and for that I’m so grateful.

If you are in need of a yoga teacher in London, I would LOVE to wiggle on the mat and hold space for you. Just send me a dm, or comment below 🧡🫶🏼🙏🏼

I’ve always struggled with my weight, ever since I was a child. It’s something that’s fluctuated a lot over the years.

And at the same time, my weight has always been something people feel comfortable commenting on. “Suze, you’ve lost weight, you look great”- I know these comments are well meaning, but they create a really damaging idea of what’s “good” or “bad”, or socially acceptable.

Over time, it’s really affected how I see myself. How attractive I think I am. How worthy of love I feel and I’ve often felt like I stick out like a sore (or swollen 😅) thumb.

For the past 3 weeks, I’ve been in Bali doing my yoga teacher training. And it has taught me so much, not just about what my body is capable of, but about the fact that we have many layers of self, and my physical body is only one of them. It most definitely doesn’t define me.

What matters more is the awareness and consciousness and energy within me. That’s what allows me to actually live my life fully, and to share that with others.

And I was so wrong about my fears…

I felt instantly accepted by the most loving, supportive Kula. I sweated bucket. My rolls rolled. I got my legs out (😮😮😮) and I modified where I needed to by listening to my body.

Yoga teaches us that we are already perfect as we are and that growth doesn’t come from punishment or self-loathing, it comes from openness, curiosity, and compassion. I am just a sum of everything that’s happened to me up until this point, which includes things like having an ectopic pregnancy 9 months ago, something that really affected my weight and I’m still recovering from, both mentally and physically.

So I’m really learning to feel grateful for my body, for going through so much and still carrying me. Allowing me to move, to smile, to connect, and to experience life in this way.

None of this would have been possible without the amazing community I met @saltyprana , especially @_yoga_vida_celine , @bennynilon and @elisa.suryaflow and my loved one’s support, and for that I’m so grateful.

If you are in need of a yoga teacher in London, I would LOVE to wiggle on the mat and hold space for you. Just send me a dm, or comment below 🧡🫶🏼🙏🏼

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

¡Qué bonito! Volveremos, gracias Sevilla 🇪🇸

I really didn’t want to post this video. I felt self-conscious about my rolls, the imperfections in my asanas, the wobbling and the fact I have a VPL because I’m wearing Bridget Jones big pants because they were the only ones I had left having not done my washing…

I wondered - will people be repulsed? Will they find me unattractive? Will they think I’m any less of a yoga teacher because I wobble, or because my sequence isn’t perfect? Will they take me seriously?

All of that ran through my head… until I heard this beautiful poem by @ellymiles. It reminded me that not posting this would go against everything I believe in and everything I hope to teach.

Because this is real and raw and this is me, exactly where I’m at right now.

I may not have every posture perfected, but I’ll always be a student of yoga, and of life. And yoga is so much more than the asanas we practice, the fact that I am present, I showed up and I’m connected to my breathe is perfect enough for me.

I want my classes to feel like the safest space: a place where you can wobble, show up exactly as you are, in whatever shape or size. We’re all made differently and that’s a BEAUTIFUL thing. Imagine how boring life would be if we all looked, dressed, spoke, and moved the same.

So come as you are and embrace the messy 💛

GUYS this is not a drill… I think I’m learning how to feel properly 😂💛

Jokes aside, I had one of those moments where I just felt really proud of myself. I was surprised when I was able to soften into a conversation with a friend, despite the fact that we were on a packed tube on a Saturday evening, and I’m so grateful to my friend for providing that space and not just asking the question as a tick box exercise.

My yoga journey has been amazing at teaching me to lean in instead of shutting down (or shutting people out) and to breathe and connect and stay with myself even when it feels a bit messy. Yoga isn’t just something that happens on the mat, it’s a way we can carry ourselves in the world and for that I am so buzzing for what’s to come.

If this encourages even one person to be a bit more honest about how they’re actually feeling, or to let someone in… please do it. What’s on the other side is a way deeper connection that you can’t fake and I feel so much closer to my friend, despite having known her for 17 years.

People want to be there for you and it makes them feel good too, so if you can’t do it for yourself yet, do it for them and always remember there are no “bad emotions” and you don’t have to perform for anyone 💛

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

Missing my gorgeous Kula and Bali so so much!

So grateful to have met all of these beautiful souls - wish we could do it all again ✨✨✨

At the weekend I had the chance to share a film I made about my grandmother with all of my family. We were in Cornwall to scatter her ashes in one of her favourite place, and to reunite her with my grandpa.

A couple of years ago, I put together a list of questions, about her childhood, her life, her relationship with my grandpa, becoming a parent and then a grandparent, and all the bits of wisdom she’d gathered along the way. Then I sat down with her and filmed it.

She died the year after, and I feel so grateful I had that time with her in her living room. Not just to capture her voice, but to get to ask her all the questions I’d never had the chance to as she was so busy looking after and showing interest in us. And now, to be able to share that conversation with everyone who loved her so much is something I’ll cherish forever.

She didn’t feel very comfortable with the idea of having a camera pointing at her at first, as not only was it such a foreign experience, but her generation is also so modest and selfless. But, once she got talking she really softened and told me she loved the experience of reflecting on her life and hadn’t thought about some of those stories in a very long time.

It’s made me realise how much these films matter, long after you press record and how it will become something we can return to, something that keeps her memory alive, and something future generations can look back on too.

If you’re lucky enough to still have someone in your life whose stories you haven’t fully heard, then please don’t wait. Sit them down, ask the questions and record it, or dm me if you need any help.

I promise you, you won’t regret it 💛

Take this as your reminder: go for a walk, get some air, leave the plan behind for a moment and let nature do what it does best 🌿

I am convinced this is one of the best feelings in the world 🚀🛵

Travel diaries 🫶🏼🌅⛰️🗼💛

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I will be visiting for birthdays and holidays only 🫰🏼

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Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼

Obsessed doesn’t even begin to cut it - I think we’re going to be best friends 💛

Welcome to the world little man. We love you so much 🥹🫶🏼